What can I say, there is nothing I can say, all I know is I wont be the same, I always want you happy and would do anything for your happiness, but if its to shatter my heart then I wont be the same, I can only accept what you wish.

I dont want just a moment with you, I want a lifetime with you, I want to be there for you when you cry or when you are down, I want to be there for you to hold you tight, and I want to be there to pick you up.

As always Im here for you and I will never turn you away, Ill never hate you, I will never block you, I can only give you my heart.

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I know I made a mess of things all those years ago, but honestly I would make it up with a lifetime of love and passion, because thats all I have for you, this love is no lust, it is how I have felt all these years, the passion I bring you isfrom me to you now and forever.

Some say that these could be just words written down, but for me it is how I feel, and always will, and theres no changing that, I can hide my feelings and live a normal life, but I dont want a normal life, I want a life with you. and if thats normal then ok but if its wild and crazy then so be it thats what I want with you, because a life without you just wouldnt be the same, it would change me for sure. Im not the same now always wondering what you will do. and it just breaks my heart into pieces at the idea that I cant be with you. Honestly I wont be the same I would just burry all that stuff inside for another ten years, And live the NORMAL life or maybe the world has other plans for this soul, I honestly cant take this pain anymore it dwells deep within me. Over the years I have thought of you and always wondered what you were doing and wondered if you were looking up at the moon as I was, Over the years as life was going by Feelings and thoughts came to me and just wondered what you were thinking, maybe it was all the pain I caused or maybe it was that smile, and for all the pain, I can never forgive myself.

But what I can do is love you till the end of this time like I always have, Not a day has gone by that I have missed your voice, your cute laugh and sexy voice, or that creative art you bring to the world. I even miss the fights because in reality maybe thats how I held onto you.

And as I have grown not only in age and life, I have grown to know that all of me loves all of you, with all your good and all your bad, It dont matter to me because All I want in life is for you to grab this mans hand and start that adventure. But what can I do. onlything I honestly know is that I love you and always will.