Life is hard  to give up is the easy way, I have never been one to just give up especially about something so passinate to me, I guess life would be easier for everyone if I did just give up,  I just cant stop what the heart desires :(

You do what you need to do I cant stop you or change what you have planned, and I can not forget you I never will, I been living in darkness for 10 years and while I do want the best for you. I do love and care for you more then you realise,

I cant move on from you, while it is easy for you too i guess understand. I will be here like I have always said my door is always open. and i honestly mean that. I can not close the door from something I have loved for so long.

Im glad you wrote me that first time, Thats all I ever wanted over those ten years, and its not "HOPE" you do it because you have wanted something too. I think we both know I bring something great to the table, As for me in my situation, not sure what to say about it, I know for sure Im not happy in that situation and there will be a time when I  live for me, what does that mean I dont know.

What else can I say that I have already said, I dont know, I wish you the best in your safe life, but sometimes theres a deeper feeling within us all. and sometimes its hard to avoid that.

its sad it really is sad how you want to deal with this because I know we have helped eachother in these wild emotions, But I will say it again. Im here for you if you ever need a kind soul to laugh with, discuss and talk my door is open always and my heart is always open, and that will never change.